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2009-08-04T16:16:00.001+08:00

NEW BLOG IN PROGRESS

2009-04-19T15:33:00.008+08:00

~Missed you.
I missed yr presence,
missed yr smell.
Missed yr cnt-mke-it lies,
missed yr brkn promises.
I missed yr broad shoulders,
missed yr hugs.
Missed yr gentle kisses,
missed yr whispers.
I missed yr tears,
missed yr laughs.
Missed yr evrything,
frm happiness 2 sad,
all the crap, the jokes, yr actions, yr stupidity..

The tickles u gv,
the pokes i returned.
Holding hands,
exchanging bags,
doing weird stuff,
toking crap,
doing special things 4 each other...
The fights we fought,
the quarrels we argued.
U giving in 2 me,
me ending up squeezing yr innocent face.
Tell me why things changed,
tell me why u dunno.
But becos those memories r past,
they r slowly tuning in2 dust,
gradually blurring,
feelings fading...
Let's stay this way,
in unsureness,
in ambiguity.
No yes or no,
no ryt or wrong.
Bcos i miss u,
bt its nt reality anymore,
i dun rly knw wad i'm losing out on.
Wads brkn cnt b mended,
wads lost cnt b retrieved,
let it stay let it stay...
Look at me nw,
i've changed.
I can b w/o u,
i can b stronger w/o u.
I'm independent,
i'm still living.
Thank you 4 those memories,
bt most imptantly,
my gratefulness 4 those misses,
missings of u..

♥

2009-04-19T01:42:00.004+08:00

ton-ing ovr at Xinyi's hse 2nyt w JJ&Xinyi's stead(:
haha.
lef hse frm Yew Tee at 9pm 2 mt JJ&Adrian at Changi Airport 2 fetch Xinyi...
im still tired even though i slpt in the aftnn.
her flight frm Taiwan 2 Sg was at 1145pm,
bt she arrived early,
haha.
cabbed all the way 2 hougang,
hlped her unpack...
bsides,
she brought us nice gifts(:
Kudos!

Airport cold,
hungry cos im tired,
JJ tk my hoodie,
my ahem cum le,
2day's MYE Chi gt my brains freezing in the hall...
zzz my day's summary(:

IM IN ♥ WITH AARON YAN YA LUN!!!!

Currently listening to Lady Gaga's Paparazzi,
sexy~

♥

2009-04-12T20:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16TH BDAY YOGA BRO!!!
(:

~Uve bin a totally cool&great bro 2 me all dis while,
hpe u hv a fun bday&tt u wun b so emo&b happier each day k?
do u knw yr smile is v whitening&contagious?
lol.
God is blessing u nw&may u continue 2 grw in yr spiritual walk w Him&build up an imtimate r/s w Him in all u do!
We all love u YOGASAKTHIVEL~

♥

2009-04-12T19:32:00.008+08:00

IM SO LAZY 2 POST ANYTHING NWADAYS...
nothing much 2 blog abt.
studied w JJ&Sining at Jurong Library 2day,
&dese r Sining's O'Lvl art prep 4 her theme qn,
beautiful ryt?
im sure she'll gt an A1(:

Went 2 CHC Jurong West ytd 2 watch the performance,
i teared...
HAPPY EASTER!!(:
Sweet Yongxin gv me dis cute darling Piglet 4 my belated bday gift,
awww,
&hre were sum of the small totful gifts the CHCs gv.
Went 4 fellowship w Xt's cg, saw my last tym cg W341, ate dinner,
thn headed 2 Timah IRC 2 play pool.
I Vow 2 hv a billiards/pool table set up in my future hme nxt tym,
mann im gting addicted+my skills r rusty alr(*mad&fuming*)
p.s.(*** ***** frm W*** is dam handsum!)

Recently bec a few wks,
went w class aft sch 2 Fusionopolis 2 eat dis yummy baked rice.
u cn choose yr cream sauce&yr main ingredient+free drink+free icecream at a student price of $6.40(:
tt "restaurant" is actually run by ex-offenders,
hwevr,
their cooking is top&dey so frenly+the ppl r chio&handsum,
nw tts wad i call #1 quality svc alryt!(:

tmr g w Sining 2 IMM jurong thr 2 change my Sony Ericsson earpiece,
stupid thing cum out...
lucky still gt warranty 2 cover(:
Tue g Lot 2 hlp Nesh collect his special gift 4 sum1 on his 3rd mth,
KUDOS bro.

♥

2009-03-28T21:34:00.002+08:00

Ive bin v stressed lately.
W so many things on my mind...
Family, frens, past hurts&all,
i was thinking if only dis, if only tt.

"Whn it hurts 2much, u cnt feel anything anm.."
srsly.
its v tru.
ive bin numb 4 v long alr,
till nw..
&its jus so tough 2 evr trust in luv agn!
Dun ask me y,
idk bcos i jus feel tt way.

1.Prioritise my studies as 1st.
2.Dun lyk any1.
3.Love evry1 ard u.
(:
MY LATEST RESOLUTION

♥

2009-03-24T10:47:00.003+08:00

In f&n class nw.
IM BORED!
dun feel lyk doing coursewrk bt managed 2 do quite a bit...(:
i'd rather do it at hme or elsewhr other thn in sch.
nth 2 blog much bout though.

Rachel is staying bec 4 bball match in sch during the wk or sth,
its a miracle mann...
haha.
so fun im so dam happy!!!
hahaha,
cnt wait.
cos we 3 cn gt 2 eat tgt,
tok tgt,
hv fun tgt,
discuss abt guys&gals tgt, whn the day cums.
I So MISS those prec cute memorable tyms,
cos aft all,
so many tings hv hpned recently&we shd all cum tgt sn.

♥

2009-03-21T21:03:00.001+08:00

Tell Me Why
I took a chance, I took a shot
And you may think I'm bullet-proof, but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground I see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me and then cut me down
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
That makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
You'll still remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why

You can write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day
Well I get so confused and frustrated forget what I'm tryin' to say, ohh

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me then push me around
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
That makes me run for cover when you're around
Here's to you and your temper
You'll still remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why

Why, do you hafta make me feel small?
So you can feel whole inside
Why, do you hafta put down my dreams?
So you're the only thing on my mind

Well I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feelin like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around
Here's to you and your temper
You'll still remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why
Why, tell me why

I take a step back and let you go
I told you I'm not bullet-proof, now you know

♥

2009-03-20T21:57:00.014+08:00

11th March:
my 16th bday.
thk u guys hu gv me my surprise bday which i totally din expect!
thks to Yuanting, Sijin, Xinmei, Henry too.
Yr presence was missed(:

12th March:
Happy 16th Bday Brandon!!!

Yesterday
I started hving insomnia since the day b4 ytd.
&i want my slp bec!!!
Feel lyk a child mann,
i nid ppl 2 "hlp" me gt 2 slp,lyk by toking on the fone until i slp or sth...
Thk u Yoga&Linda 4 being thr by me on the fone hearing me babble&yak on&on so irritatingly&laughing continuously,
gosh i feel lyk i was being possessed la.

supposed 2 stayovr ytd at sch 4 drama camp,
bt no pt la.
anw it'll oso b quite a hassle...
&ive gt a phobia of the dark&ton-ing cos of ahem la.
thr was bball camp, volleyball camp&bb camp too.
thn Delia, Shreedhee&me had 2 find Daryl 4 sum personal stuff,
bt shit lor,
whn we open the door to the indoor sports hall,
dam ps cn??!!
EVRY1 WAS LKING STRAIGHT AT OUR FACES LYK WE WERE SUM IDIOTS...
tk pics at the railings, road arrow outside the GO, near the field thr b4 leaving.
went 2 Elizabird's hse aft tt.
we had girl's talk&it was soooooo fun!!
Delia's dad sent me off 2 Dover mrt aft tt.
thn started my bedtym blus agn...
):
i nid my b4-slp-mus-tok-on-fone-ppl agn.

♥

2009-03-15T23:15:00.008+08:00

have been downright busy lately.
will get to some serious blogging with recent updates soon.
and look forward to new pictures uploaded,
my 16th bday celebrations.
sorry for the delay...

♥

P.S. Can anyone help me with my blog prob? See the hidden-overlapped words near the left column? Yeah. How do i move it to the bottom of my columns where they can be visible? Blogskins or blogger or anyone are welcome... Reply me via my tagboard, thanks(:

2009-03-01T20:09:00.013+08:00

Went studying w JJ, Sining&Odilia at batok.
nw at JJ's hse hogging com...

Was looking thru the prev memories of NC,
all below.
still gt me zilian ytd 4 1hr+ aft i gt hme frm bestie's hse.
lol.
&2days's study pics..

♥

2009-02-28T21:21:00.017+08:00

im currently in dis mood.
Why?
Bcos ive found myslf a job.
JJ too(:
Freelance!!

2day Sining, JJ&me went 2 FarEast Plaza 2 gt present 4 Richard.
His bday cuming sn!!
(:
me&Sining tk pics on the bus.
Sadly, her fone cnt send cos its by infrared..
):
MS LUA!! I WAN THE PICS!! DEY'RE DAM NICE!!!

thn Sining had 2 go off.
So me&JJ went 2 Dhoby Ghaut 4 the job thingy.
Saw Alan, YuWei, Edric, Aquila&JunMing.
haha.
the handsum gang..
lol.
Is 2day Pink Day?
JJ wore pink 2day&most of the handsum guy clique wore pink too.
Lol.

the job thingy was v gd.
haha.
i sobo-ed JJ.
heh heh heh.

Miss Retreat gt dis lil dog inside.

haha.

It was so cute we jus went inside,

although we had no interest in wadsoevr eyelash/eyebrow extensions/plucking...

hahaha.

i spotted another shop w my name&its upcoming...

JJ ate dis.

dam yummy.

the left side one idk bt the ryt side one is mango pudding(:

The shop dam cool.

Jus look at tt.

On Thurs,

Me, Abi, Cally&WeiQin went 2 Anchorpt 2 eat Tom Yam.

bt last min nvr.

Cos Abi sick,

WQ unknwn,

i tongue-ulcer.

So only Cally.

thn went bec 2 sch 4 cca.

Delia, Shreed&Char gt chased out of drama so i joined dem whn i came in.

Eli lost her hp,

&Guhanesh found it at her hme near the washing machine!

lol.

Me, Abi&WeiQin.

Cally Kok camera shy):

Me, Cally&Abi finished eating a long tym ago&WeiQin was still eating,

her bowl was nt yet half touched lor..

Lol.

Look at the Tom Yam soup Cally ordered!

mann if only i din hv ulcer on my tongue thn hw nice alr...

Cally's food.

Abi's food.

Mine.

ytd stayed bec in sch w Delia, Shreed, Eli, Guhanesh, Dylan 2 watch bball match&soccer.

Bishan Pk's no 12 caught my eye mann.

lolol.

bt my impression of him changed aft his attitude prob 2 our sch ppl.

ungentlemanly&rough.

♥

2009-02-25T18:15:00.017+08:00

Was up to zilian-ing agn on Feb16, last last Sat 2 mt Pris&Yoga at bkt Merah.
the bus so long until i listen 2 my songs till sian,
so ard Vivo thr,
i started camwhoring...
2nd pic quality nt so gd bt i only lyk the bhind sun rays.
(:

KK. DO NT GT MISTAKEN.
HE DIN AHEM.
WHILE TKING THE PIC,
HE PUT HIS FINGER IN FRONT OF THE CAM 2 CREATE THE EFFECT,
& bluffed me by saying, "Emily, yr shorts gt zip nt??''
stupid fool.
bt i put dis pic, although quite ..., is cos its v nice actually if nt 4 his stupid hand,
a pity.

I hate standing in the front 2 tk pics!
ahaha.
bt JJ,
u gotta admit my hp cam btr thn yrs tts y u always insist using mine 2 tk at nyt!!
xPPP

The day aft g town w Rachel&Yoga,
2 mt JJ,
the place whr i fell up the stairs!

The new Yeo's drink, dunno if y'guys tried. its Awesome mann i tell u!
must try.

The police report i made with JJ last last Fri i think.

The blister frm the eve of Vday tt tym aft g town.
gross huh.

here r the pics.
haha.
On Sat gonna accompany JJ 2 dunno whr wad day nursery(:, thn go job-hunting agn at Dhoby Ghaut!(:
lol.
bt hpefully dis job ive set my eyes on is nt a hectic one lyk b4,
i wan it 2 b v flexible+gd pay.
greedy i knw,
bt im short of $$$ in my personal circumstances.
&im oso thinking of saving up 4 braces.
i hvn asked my dad bt rly,
i need God 2 wrk a miracle 4 me,
in His tym...

in the mrning went 2 sch w Yuanting.
haha,
long tym nvr c her le.
(:
Happy Advanced 2Mths 2 U&JINGXIANG!!
May the ♥ last 4evr...

nxt tym married must invite me hors!
lol.

had F&N test 2day,
hpe i pass.
i dowanna fail anymore.
&i needa rush out 15pgs of R&D, 4 coursewrk.
0____O |||

thn had Maths test.
din hv tym 2 finish Trigo qns at the bec,
siggghhhh..
Must pass must pass!

aft sch went 2 find Aqua&his clique at the indoor sports hall,
playing bball.
toking abt bball,
i long tym nvr 'Seriously''play le.
the last tym was in WAC,
aft cell.
nw i hardly cn mke tym 2 go.
im planning 2 return asap,
bt i kp procrastinating.
Shit, i must stop tt k.
ive bin toking 2 God evryday, praying, &spending quiet tyms&special moments w Him,
especially at nyt.
My faith must kp burning,
trust must kp rising,
believe in Him w all of me 100%,
obey Him 100%,
surrender&submit my all 2 Him 100%.
i dowan my gifts frm Him 2 go wasted,
&provide common ans 2 Christianity issues,
bcos faith w/o wrks is dead.

2day i read:
"God's help never fails
And how much we receive
Depends on how much
Our hearts can believe."

ING YANG, GET WELL SOON!!!
WE'LL KEEP U IN PRAYER.
&RACHEL,
THK U 4 STANDING BY ME NO MATTER WAD HAPPENED. (:

2009-02-18T08:26:00.006+08:00

"pon-ed" cross country on Fri&went out w Rachel&Yoga 2 twn.

Muji no more stock of the vday cookies i wanted 2 bake):

guess i had 2 gt other gifts ba.

stopped at Food Republic 2 eat lunch.

As usual, i had my soup! (Corn&carrot soup)

Yoga treated me 2 mountain dew.

Rachel slept on the table.

hahaha.

headed ovr 2 cine.

Rachel's shoes bit me&i gt a horrible bloody big horrendous blister.

lol.

lucky she bought a new pair of slippers,

v nice.

Orange colour&stylish.

Otherwise i think her feet die le.

haha.

thn went ovr 2 Heeren 2 find 4 Rachel's tragus stud.

Hers dropped too.

she gt dis silver w pink designated stud,

which lks dam sophisticated.

at nyt went 2 mt JJ.

he was so late!

Mr, i waited 4 u 4 hw long ar? lol.

rch yew tee alr,

i still walked all the way 2 limbang 2 waste tym,

&called him w the public fone.

2 act pk kpt staring,

so i jus walked past dem while dey were nudging each other&all,

eyeballs focussing on me 4 nth,

&walked a big round out of Limbang jus 2 c their faces.

i knw myb will gt in2 unnecessary trouble,

bt!, i jus Hate ppl staring at me 4 no reason mann,

especially giving me thost nasty glares,

&diao-ing me up, dwn.

dey followed bhind,

cos i found it totally ridiculous y dey cud hv jus went out frm the entrance dey came in frm at whr i was using the fone, &instead chose 2 follo me a big roundabout.

Cmon la,

u trying 2 tell me tt Yew Tee is yr territory?

Mann i tell u tt Yew Tee is my hmetwn.

In the pk world,

hasn't anyone Taught u nt 2 diao ppl 4 no reason if nt cn gt in2 problem?

thn whn rly gt in2 problem y'all will cum pengwei say is the other party start 1st.

Get a life, really.

whn JJ finally rched,

he followed me 2 the NPCC 2 lodge a police report on my missing CSC card.

lol.

thn went bec Limbang Mac go study awhile,

aft tt went 2 Blk564 2 slack.

tt guy say wad 13th floor dam thrilling,

&in my mind i went, "OMG, 2day's Fri the 13th lor."

no wonder so many suay things hpned.

1st my blister.

thn at the 10th floor,

JJ say gt dis aunty kp lking at us so we btr go 1 floor up,

thn whn i went 2 c hu,

i saw nobody&i was spooked out.

So i raced up the stairs, in skipping mode,

&thn i fell,

nt dwn the stairs, bt up the stairs.

I fell on my fours.

Gdness mann,

super unglam.

lucky only JJ saw bt he was of no hlp la...

he was frozen 2 the spot, laughing his ass off.

Hw mean ryt?

EHH!! i gt Aw-Ceah(blue-back, sry idk hw 2 spell.) lehh&u still rofl thr...

&bcos i tot my toenail came out,

i was still in tt unglam position & was shouting at JJ, "Eh, bang wo kan wo de jiao you mei you liu xue, wo hen pa!"(Eh, hlp me see if my leg gt bleed nt, i v scared!)

&he was laughing harder.

zzz.

thn JJ cme ovr my hse awhile until 1230am.

haha.

Bestie!!!, i feel so touched. lolol. u spent the 1st strike of vday w me! FrensForevr(:

"♥ is all ard so enjoy it while u cn!"

Happy Belated Vday 2 evry1 out thr, &those lovey-dovey couples!!

♥♥♥

2009-02-17T11:14:00.001+08:00

4C's class gathering (:

♥♥♥

2009-02-11T18:33:00.015+08:00

PSA pics frm ytd. 1st pic- during the brk, u cud find all the girls in the toilet, its oh my gosh so so Wow! 3rd, 4th, 6th pic- scenery frm the 4oth storey of the PSA building we were in, dam nice.

1st pic- i gt zilian one okay? 2nd pic- Happy 3 girlfrens(: 3rd, 4th, 5th pic- the lovable kitty which i just love so much!

1st pic- my new red arrowhead loop tragus stud! (: 2nd, 3rd, 4th pic- i found a new cam function in my hp, so haha. zilian agn. im sorry. disis wad hpns whn im bored&aft i cum hme frm outside.

the pics frm SP campus concert. Shi Xing Hui&Li Jing Lun♥

the pics i tk frm following WQ&Perrine's haircut aft sch@Marina.

Aft sch w Aqua&the gang, swimming(: i rmb i had fun w table tennis. haha.

1st pic- i found my hse thr the toilet so cute. lol. i only recently thn step inside 4 the 1st tym. gdness.
2nd pic- whaddya see? yes, my birthdate, On the train cabin.(:
3rd pic- Cally loved me so much, she ran aft me in Bollywood style! lol.
4th pic- Our fav hangout place, the sch toilets. hahaha.

tts those pics.
nt much though.
lol.

♥

2009-02-11T08:13:00.005+08:00

finally bought my red loop arrowhead stud 4 my tragus.
rushed hme frm sch last Thurs 2 go 4 the Shi Xing Hui's campus concert at SP.
&i dropped my original stud whn i squeezed my earpiece in.
Im in much♥ w Li Jing Lun aft tt SP event!
hes so handsum+his vocals&songs r dam woohoo!

Aaargghh.
im feeling so troubled lately.
so many things hpned.
Thank yous to Cally, Rach, Pris, Abi, WQ, Perrine 4 caring(:
appreciations loads.
im trying to b happy nw,
at least,
to save myslf frm drowning in negative emotions.
Sumtyms i see ppl in sch&ignore dem.
bt all dese r nt on purpose.
rly dunno wads up w me.
its s if im nonchalant 2wards my surroundings.
Apologies hre 2 the frens whom i hv seemed 2 avoid&neglect&ignored.
1. Ariel (i knw ive bin myb gving u the cold shoulder in sch. i cn sense myslf sending off stranger-chill signals. IF u experienced dis, im sorry my bro.)
2. SBF members (the outing last Sun i cmi, i felt v bad. i knw u guys were super-duper-ultr-mega-sweetie-pie Nice 2 wanna cum ovr my hse 2 visit me bt last min cnt. i understand. lets catch up soon sumtym agn ba. i still ♥ all of u!)
3. Henry di (oh mann, Sat i last min cancel our mting 2 go out watch movie So PS! yes, &thk u 4 the Get Well Sn msg.. i'll try 2 mke it the nxt tym alryt? (: )
4. To all the others, to the whole world if necessary.
mann,
y am i even feeling so _____
guilty.

IM STILL SICK.
mildly-unwell.
bouts of flu, cough, on-off chills&fever, brkouts of a few rash.
i dowan c doc.
i hate clinics.
i hate medicine.
im lazy.
im tired.
im stressed.
im troubled.
i nid $$$.
i wan put braces :D
i pray a miracle wud appear, tt my dad wud allow, the only bday present i ask 4 cos im turning 16.. Papa, idk if u cn read dis. bt i wanna tell u many many tings. I wan our family 2 b ok agn, lyk last tym. I dowan u 2 abuse us physically, nor financially deprive us or neglect us in anything. If only u cud b the dad&husband our family lked up 2 last tym. Wad hpn 2 the old u? Wad hpn 2 the dad i once had? Wad hpn 2 the husband Mummy once had? Whr r u? I want u back, badly.

ytd aft sch our class went 2 the Keppel port blah blah at PSA.
the place is Awesome!
we were allowed 2 drive round the container port area whr no public were allowed access in2.
Hw cool cn tt gt?
lol.
aft we cme bec,
Rach, Yoga, me&Cally went 2 Dover 2 gt chocs, drinks.
We purposely go disturb YW hu was buying his bubble tea at Sweet Talk.
He turned round&was shocked 2 c us gals aft Yoga asked him 2 c hu was bhind him.
Cally said, "Hi Yiwei!"
hahaha.
he was lyk, "uhh, hi."
Rachel thn said "U ok not? y so silent?"
thn he rply, "huh. orh hihihi."
is tt an answer?!
i jus kept my mouth shut thruout(:
lol.
the drama in front of me was nice 2 watch, bt v awkward la.
bt lyk wadYoga say, its real fun 2 disturb him.
1 look at his actions&reactions&it cn gt u 2 nominate dem as the biggest joke of the year.
haha.
sry 4 being 'mean'.
no offence.
went w Yoga bec 2 Jumbo&shared fried rice.
Yum!
bus-ed 106 bec.
slept all the way.
Nice aunty warned me in the train abt dis guy in front of me hu was ahem, the hand lyk ''itchy'' bt cos i was lyk half-aslp, i din rly care.
in the lift 2 my hse,
4gt press my lvl cos i was so dumb, so tired tt i dozed off in the lift&awoke on the 8th floor instead of the 4th. Embarrassing ok. the ice-cream fellas were lyk, "R u alryt? *smiles on their faces* " oh gawd!!

I MISS *** ***** lots!!

kk.
i promise.
i promise i'll in my bestest tym asap upload those freaking delayed pics.
(:

♥

2009-02-03T09:48:00.002+08:00

Heck it.
the file transfer sucks.
i cnt even upload the pics!!
):

the class gathering on sat was dam awesome!
Rachel&i ate alot..
thr were KFC, Pizza Hut orders&alot of drinks!
ok anw we camwhored lyk crap.
we posed at the pools, the brightly decorated trees, the shelter, almost evrywhr..
(Bt Of All The Wrong Timings, I CNT UPLOAD ANYTHING!!! frustrating.)

oh,
the super joker part was Rachel&i saw the jacuzzi pool,
so we went in 2 camwhore,
thn i kay kiang go 1mor step dwn cos tot tt it weren't so deep,
alas!
i gt wet from the bottom sia.
Rachel ur comedic mann,
& Pris, ur v v v v v dead.

anw,
Rachel&me r in f&n class nw watching the fashion parade videos!
haha.
4g dam funni,
our class one frm video seen,
rly lks super retarded.
haha.
dam cute la still(:

g swimming w Cally, Abi, Aqua, Edric&IngYang aft sch ltr.
thn at nyt or tmr nyt myb g 2 catch Shi Xing Hui's exclusive performance on campus grounds..
I cnt guarantee uploads of pics hwevr.

♥

2009-01-30T16:27:00.003+08:00

Chem test sucked mann.
i mostly tikam tikam(:
aft sch join Aquila, IngYang, Edric&Willis at dover thn 2 Broadway eat lunch.
haha.
Cally jus ate 1bun,
i bought 2soft boiled eggs&milo bing.
go bec sch find wr w the guys.

i was so tempted 2 join dem in the strt soccer court.
aft the guys lef,
i dunno y i found the skies so nice,
thn i go lie on the grass until whn i went hme my head itched so bad siaa.
lucky Cally nvr lie lor.
lol.
tings r complicated btwn dem,
hwevr,
i hpe my dear Cally sis 2 stay strong,
WR too.

Gawd my tragus piercing hurts so freaking painful!
till nw whnevr i move my mouth,
the infection mkes me lyk half-paralyzed.

2day gt the stupid mass run.
haha.
mor lyk mrning stroll lor.
we were mostly walking.
lol.
the last part thn we sprint..

jus nw go Heritage View w Cally 2 find Aquila tt grp.
haha.
dey were swimming!!
lolol.
&we played w dis super cute small boy,
hes in Pri3 FMS(pri).
nw at yoga's hse w billy hogging his com!
&thrs super emo music blasting my eardrums,
c la yoga!,
nw my tragus mor pain lor..

ltr meeting JJ!!
haha.
aft his stuff.

&tmr im gonna b so so so busy!!
in the afnn g out w ppl,
evening till night gt our 1st class gathering!
4C simply rOx.
1st tym we're gonna c evry1 in their outside clothes.
Yay,
&i gt 2 wear my newly bought blue contacts,
finally replc my violet ones.
[:

p.s. ( i cannot like you,
bcos its Hopeless,
i dun wan to trust,
&oso,
One-sidedness is Nothing, Zero.
i hate ambiguity,
i hate inclarity.
it will b gne.
i knw&i wan it to.
i wish it impossible.)

ta-ta.
♥

2009-01-28T20:49:00.002+08:00

IM SICK IM SICK IM SICK!!!
dwn w an allergy, fever&flu.
sneezed 18times on bus300 to jj's hse,
&3mor aft alighting.
-.-
&tmr still gt Chem test!

2day v suay.
tk bus w ariel 2 buona vista.
thn aft he lef,
i wanted 2 cab hme.
&i lef my Chem tb dunno whr.
realising it wasn anywhr in my bag,
i rch hme change&rush dwn 2 buona vista agn...
nt thr liao.
Gd luck 4 me mann..
thn nw at jj's hse mugging, using his Chem bk,
hpefulli cn hlp la,
bt my brain v tired nw.
God i need U!!!!!

thn i entered hotmail,
found out i nvr save the correct TA for F&N,
all my hard wrk nid redo siaa!
zzz.

♥

2009-01-27T22:26:00.005+08:00

last Fri Cally, Marie, Tong Hann&me went t Orchard.
Marie was so tired,
she fell aslp on the Wheelock Place toilet!
Marie&Tong Hann watch The Bride Wars, Cally&me watch Passengers at Cine,
at 1st we tot was horror,
thn nt thn lyk errr-ok, thn we were so touched we cried.
lol.
& i found my fav hmemde soup at Food Republic!!
Vivo's closed dwn lor..
!!!
Tong Hann hlp me buy.
hahaha.
thn on sat,
met Richard(xiao didi xP), Sining, JJ at bugis zou zou.
at nyt JJ&me went twn agn,
mt Nickelodean pass mag-poster
ate at Pastamania's, search 4 the vday gifts i wanted 2 gt 4 ppl,
i found dem&dey were so cute!
anyways,
i hpe u guys'll love dem!
Couples& Galfrens&Frens'll gt dem,
bt myb different stuff each.
(:
'll kp the surprise 4 nw.
heh.
went Agn bec 2 Food Republic 2 drink soup bt all sold out,
so i tried the dunno wad lotus-porkribs one.
nt bad la.
sigh,
i miss hmemde food so badly.

On the prev prev Physics lab lesson,
Cally, Perrine, WQ& me had an interesting convo abt eyebrows.
Cally&Perrine were toking abt plucking eyebrows&i said it was dam Ouch lor.!.
thn we said sth abt ppl shaving dem&drawing new refined ones.
&a "brilliant'' idea cme 2 me.
i jumped up,
&asked dem wad if i shaved off my eyebrows while dey were So objective against it.
so i told dem y.
i said it was bcos s dey knw always gt spot-check thn tchers always gt probs w fringes below the brows,
so if i shave my brows,
&tchers catch me 4 my fringe,
i jus tell dem, "My fringe oso nt touching or below my brows lor."
If dey insist, i lift up my fringe&tell dem, "Bcos ive gt no brows."

Yeah.
Cool ryt.
Dey all laughed so hard, especially WQ!
im so glad ive regained Me agn.
haha.

Special Dedications go 2 mani, such as:
Pris- the sharp gal hu stabbed sense in2 me&mde sure it stayed 4 s long a tym s possible(:
Cally- my bubbly green grass hu mde my world sway w rhythm, peace&jokes! Jolly Cally..
Rachel- my optimistically funny sun rays hu mde life seem so jovial, lyk negativitism nvr existed!
Perrine, WQ&Abi- the 3 hu used their impersonation of their version of PussyCat dolls lyk a comedic act.

Weirong- my lively Brother hu turned my predicaments in2 humorous examples&hlped my sorrows leave me 4 at least, awhile(:
Yoga- my cracky Brother hu stood by me, laughed&cried w me whrevr, whnevr.
Billy- the dunno-wad-hpn-bt-cn-still-b-hre-hpe-i-cn-hlp-? fren.
Ariel- the brother hu drowned my head w happy tots 2 replc the bad stuff, temporarily.
Guhanesh- the stupid funny fren all-time 24hrs!
Isabelle- the sister hu distracted me frm any thoughts of the ...
Bryan- the dunno-if-still-frens-or-no-mor-evr guy hu cheered me up&pei me gt ovr the moodi dark storms 4 2wks thn nth mor...

SBF- i love y'guys!! Especialli JunJie, Sining& Xueting... my 4evr rainbows thru gd times&bad, happy or sad, in both colorful&dull moments! Aishiteiru.

♥

2009-01-27T21:52:00.002+08:00

Im staying ovr at Cally's hse 2nyt(:
hahaha.
v last min ting,
no prepared hp charger, no uniform, no shoes, no toiletries, no ahems,
so...
all borrowed.
lol.

In the mrning met up w Sining 2 catch The Wedding Game at Vivo.
we tot gt student price bt...
our feelings kena cheated!!:(
$10 for a movie!!!
lolol.
my angpao lui fly le.
the show was super greatly humorous!!
MUST-WATCH
My bill 2day totals up to:
1. $20 buy dress.
2. S10 watch movie.
3. $5.40 lunch at LJS(mann, tt meal i paid 4 was smaller thn usual&cn onli feed me whn i was 5!)
4. $2.40 Oreo Mango Milk Bubble Tea(i love mixing flavors!)
5. $3.30 Ramen Noodles&Milk Tea.
6. $26 for Happy $128 Green Prepaid.
Total=$67.10
$114-$67.10=$46.90(left frm angpao $$)
!!! im gonna re-earn my expenses agn sn.

thn aftnn went 2 mt Cally, WeiRong&Yoga!!
hahaha.
super fun!
The guys comments:
to Cally- y u wear until lidat? so formal.
to me- Emily lks lyk she's g to a dinner at a club la.
diaoooooooooooo.
&bcos we had nth 2 do,
i smuggled dem in2 anchorpt 2 slack.
splashed water at one another,
anihw tk pics hre&thr...
bt will upload another tym.
my hp g low batt le.

Aft tt Cally's mum invited me ovr 2 their hse 4 dinner,
b4 dciding tt i'll stay ovr 2nyt.
Mummy says Yes!(:
their hse is so BIG,
lyk a palace,
lyk in the movies,
lyk so spacious,
i cn gt lost!

ive gt alot 2 blog abt,
in the nxt few posts probably adding in by 2day.
(;

♥

2009-01-23T21:42:00.006+08:00

haha.
at J's hse nw hogging his com.
anw today was ultra-mega Awesome!
we had ethnic celebrations today,
& Cally, Rachel, Perrine& me wore Peranakan...
WooHoo!
Abi wore Malay wedding costume,
cos our lvl's classes had t put on a 3min performance,
& we were in the casting.
The guys were so funny!
will be uploading lotsa lotsa pics once the snapshots are uploaded by my frens(:

btw,
on wed,
Cally, Rachel & me stayed bec in sch 4 awhile 2 camwhore.
haha.
the bg & scenery is quite fabulous,
as we found..

thn Rachel accompanied me 2 CP 2 repierce tragus&trim fringe!
mor pics'll b uploaded too, sn!(:
Here:

will be updating more soon on prev. events.
my life is gting mor twists!

Loves.
♥

2009-01-16T16:08:00.002+08:00

lol.

its jus so dumb.

my 1st song on my music player is nt working.

O.o

today was freaking fun!

haha.

4 first period,

as usual me, Cally, Rachel, Abi went t the toilet.

thn aft we cme out,

we were 'quite' late la.

haha.

passed by...

as we were walking t class,

Cally thought a classrm was ours,

& SHE WALKED STRAIGHT IN W/O CARING T SEE HUS THE TCHER OR THE CLASS PPL!

haha.

me, Rachel&Abi jus stood outside stunned.

In fact we were laughing our heads off la.

LOL!

she was dam funny k.

u shd hv seen her reaction.

She was oblivious t her surroundings u knw!

lyk as if she was slp-walking lidat.

hahaha.

aft the tcher greeted the class,

she saw Cally thn she told her wrong class,

& Cally turned embarrassingly red&walked out.

PE we did the dunno wad dignose-digbutt-digeyes-digteeth game,

bt its nt practical alright!,

dun think sick.

mann,

idk wads wrong w me.

i hv bin unconsciously falling aslp so early evryday whn i gt hme.

My usual slping hrs are lyk 11, 12, 1, 2.

bt recently,

i hv been slping at 630,7,8+ & waking up 4 sch the nxt morning,

w/o hvg 2 eat my dinner at all!

lol.

(psst! i nvr eat breakfast in the mrning most of the tym..)

so its quite miraculous tt i didn faint.

haha.

imagine wad wud hpn if i fainted in sch...

Super embarrassing!

i find myslf day-dreaming in class occasionally.

& im reliving HIGH agn!!

toking abt slp,

i had a Nightmare-Nightmare horribly scary so horrifically disgusting ytd.

till nw,

its still floating in my mind..

Those hu knw my family situation cn relate t the circumstances.

Ok.

it was ridiculous bcos i dreamt tt my dad attempted t or had killed me.

its lyk dis.

My dad gv my fav stuff away t his... mistress,

w/o my permission.

i was so upset i confronted him abt it,

&we ended up in a heated argument.

He suddenly jus whipped out a long gun,

(those hu knw his profession)...

he grabbed my hand,

i shuffed him away w the strength i had.

i tried t gt awae.

He reached for my neck&squeezed hard,

i shouted 4 my mum.

i was so scared.

idk if she heard cos she was in the shower.

in my dream i cud only think abt the rest of my family,

surprisingly none 4 myslf.

I was afraid i wud die,

bcos i thought t myslf:

"If i died, my mum wudn knw bcos she cnt hear my cries so if i die,

ltr whn she cums out of the shower, my dad wud do the same t her,

or sth v drastic&nasty. Wad abt my siblings? Wad wud he do t dem? I dowan dem t die. i dowan such a fate t befall dem jus bcos of my dad's wrath. At least lt me protect dem, warn my mum t run while all dese was hpning, leave me t die in my dad's hands, dun rescue me, dun hlp me, bcos its t late, jus bring my siblings&run, run far far away, dun look back. Dun cry. "

I was alr even praying in my heart,

& dis was the 1st time i had experienced in a dream such ovrwhelming emotions.

aft tt the last of it was i struggled hard,

my dad pulled my hair,

&the nxt ting i knew,

a gun was alr pointed at my head,

preparing t pull the trigger back,

threatening the last of me.

the lame thing was,

the outcome of the dream was unknwn.

idk if i actually died or wad.

bt the dream just ended lidat bcos i had t wke up 4 sch.

Heng ah.

im so glad i didn knw the outcum bcos,

its nt tt im afraid 2 knw if i rly died anot,

bt im afraid of the fact tt if i rly died,

hw wud i lk lyk whn im killed.

eyes open or closed, mouth filling w blood or opening mid-way,

neck sliced, head chopped off thn whr wud it b, body wad colour, isit disfigured, or slaughtered up into unrecognisable parts, etc blah blah.

grossness.

lol.

i told sum ppl abt it&dey said im alr mad in real life,

even in my dreams im still so retarded.

haha.

i plan t rmb it,

bcos thrs dis funny belief tt if u rmb yr dream,

it wun hpn.

on the other hand,

if u dun rmb,

it'll cum tru.

haha.

im nt superstitious bt i jus find the thought rly humorous.

lol.

kk,

i gtg nw.

im mtg Sining&Cally sn..

Ta-ta.

loves.

♥

2009-01-14T20:13:00.003+08:00

THIS IS MY CHIO SISTER.

haha.

THE ONE HU HAD SO MUCH PATIENCE W ME WHN I WAS 'BORROWING' HER COM.

hehhehheh.

lol.

my blog,

thx 2 her tym&patience,

is nw proudli presented 2 e public in its new form(:

fell in luv w a song called Goodbye.

its in my playlist,

&the lyrics r v meaningful.

Valentine's on 14Feb♥

Yay yay yay! :D

CNY is oso ard the corner...

mann,

$$$ is gonna roll in.

im planning 2 save up 4 sum stuff.

Especialli 4 my godbro&sis's 1yr Anniversary(Ariel&Isabelle) .____.

Sch gt half dae nxt fri,

due 2 the multi-racial celebrations.

evry1 cn wear ethnic costumes!

Great,

cos i cn wear my peranakan outfit agn.

Im a half-peranakan nt a full btw,

cos my mum's full bt my dad's pure chinese.(answering those doubts sum had.)

anw,

gtg sn.

"I guess the best is to forget&pretend nth's evr hpnd. Sumtyms knwing is a torture, reminiscating is an ache. Ive dcided, ***** I CANNOT LIKE U&WILL NT AGN ((:"

1.Put God first.

2.Single is best.

3.Since my grandma's alr discharged&recuperating at hme, i cn alr return 2 church!

I Miss All Of UUUUUUUUUU!!!

loves.

♥

2009-01-14T09:30:00.002+08:00

Miss Yuanting♥

long tym no c alr.

ytd pity u had wrk.

lol.

&dis pic is the nicest out of all the pics we tk tts y im posting dis(:

loves.

♥

2009-01-13T15:56:00.003+08:00

i drank 6cups of milo,
jus 2 studi 4 a stupid Lit test.
Had 2 memorise 25 key quotes&whom said 2 hu.
And.. knw the significance.
!!!
turned out,
the test was quite easi jus tt the key quotes part.
i wished my tcher wud b lyk Ms Sheena.
She goes thru evryting&most imptantli,
We UNDERSTAND.
sorry.

I wanna do so mani tings:
1.Blog evrydae(bt its bareli possible.)
2.Upload the rly cool pics ive gt.(bt its bareli possible too.)
3.Tok 2 tt sum1.(Aarrgghh, jus seeing yr face evrydae is lyk a torture cn? i dun understand wads wrong btwn us?!)
4.Dun lyk, dun love.(Heartbrk is awesomeness Ouch!)
5.Hv mor $$$.
6.Top-up prepaid!
7.Straight teeth :D
8.I dun wanna see XXX face. Stupid, aft brk still so mani coincidences...?! Wad is dis??!!?!

hahahahahahahaha.
bt im so so so so happi!!!
im at orchard nw,
in a private dental clinic,
accompanying my best sister, Delia, 2 change her braces...
nvr imagined hre wud hv coms ryt?
Yeah ppl,
its tt superb-fanstastic!!!
Mann,
i wan braces too!!!
haha.
so ccol n thn i'll gt straight teeth :D

JUNJIE BESTIE!!!
I LOVE YOU!
FRENS 4EVR TILL WE DIE (:
haha.
my fault too la.
SORRY!
i v hyper so 2 much energy=strength strong so hp strap brke.
I'll rplc it 4 u k?
Dun decline,
i'll pull yr hair.
LOLOLOLOL!

NICKELODEAN!!!
TY 4 HLPING US GT E TKTS 2 SHI XIN HUI's SHOW AT E SHENG SIONG SHOW...
& TY 4 my ears g half-deaf!,
(tts y i din wanna blow the whistle lor, my hoots alr loud enuf le(: )

PPL,
yes we gt the tkts 2 e Sheng Siong show tt tym on Sat, Channel8.
Mann oh mann,
she fabulousli AWWWWWW,
haha.
if onli dey allowed her 2 cum ovr 2 tok 2 us,
so gd ryt?
i wanna c the pics!
handsum guys&pretti gals.

alryt,
gtg le.
loves!
♥

2008-12-29T22:37:00.005+08:00

-edited by Choy Xueting
haha.
boredom gave us nth btr 2 do.
i tink his face hre lks btr in real life lor..
& so mani shadows of him,
guess hus the real one?
haha.
pls go to www.doopidarrow.blogspot.com for more information.
Withloves,
frm SBF's EX(Emily&Xueting)
♥

i realised.

2008-12-22T19:41:00.002+08:00

i knw nw.
i finalli understand.
ive seen it.
the truth.
the fucking warped truth.
the fucking truth ive nvr wanted 2 face up 2.
the fucking truth ive alwaes bin kept hidden frm.
the fucking unbelievable truth tt ive alwaes trusted u.
till nw,
yeah.
im an idiot.
the biggest idiot on earth.
a fucking lump of shit of nothingness tt alwaes trusted, loved,
till ive snapped off the core,
my heart, my emotions, my mind, my soul, my body..
in my dictionary,
my own personal physical dictionary,
3 wrds 3 meanings dun exist anymore,
True. Love. Guys.
i dun bliv in aniting tru except frm the truth of my religion,
no love, no guys.
Only jerks lyk most guys hu dun even knw the real meaning of luv,
n hu tinks tt girls' emotions r jus lyk toys n rubbish.
i wanna run, hide, wadevr,
jus lyk u.
bt i cnt.
im trained,
ive alwaes had 2 face up 2 reality.
n tts the fucking cruel truth alryt.
hw i wish i hadnt needed 2 bliv.
till 2dae,
hpe is alwaes bleak.
i had alwaes hoped.
my prayers heard n answered,
still,
life is lyk a top,
it spins,
whn it doesn kp on spinning,
it stops,
it drops.
Coincidences r jus nt coincidences.
count it on fate.
u were lyk a picture,
a dream,
flashing past my mind in a sec,
in reality,
u passed by me physicalli,
i saw u agn in real life,
dis tym.
n nt animor in a dream.
did i tell u,
3daes ago,
i saw u in my dream.
i was wondering if u had seen me too.
u were in yr ncc land uniform w the others at cck.
hwevr,
the dream focus was on u.
u saw me,
our eye contact was jus based n held on darting glances hre thr n awae.
sadli,
n quite happily,
i was actualli glad it was onli a dream,
bcos i blived wad others said,
tt dreams were the opposite of reality.
bt wad i gt frm my own belief was tt dreams actualli do cum tru,
unfortunately in a bad wae 4 me.
the wae u lkd at me was exactli the same expression frm u in my dream 3daes bec.

"Expired promises for a lifetime.."
-tts wad i gt out of dis damn damn 46daes.

am i over it, you, evryting alr?

2008-12-21T22:04:00.002+08:00

"i knw tt u knw tt i'll read yr blog..
u knw tt i knw u'll knw i'll read.
bt 1 thing i do nt knw is the truth..
Uve bin running awae,
all e tym uve bin running.
Frm me,
frm e truth."

had karoke sessions @ Stacey's hse tgt w XT&JJ.
hahaha.
went shopping @ e supermarket 4 groceries in e aftnn,
b4 heading ovr 2 Stacey's hse 2 cook.
i tell u,
e dishes r dam mouth-watering...
Yummylickinlicious!
will upload lotsa fotos sn.

Xmas is arriving.
bt its lyk ordinari daes 2 me,
my family's so separated it doesn seem lyk ani celebration or ani fun.
no Xmas trees, no presents, nth lyk usualli,
nth lyk even last year.
$$$ nt enuf,
Dad is so stingy w his $$$,
he doesn even knw we're suffering.
Smtyms i wonder wads he tinking.
-.-

ive learnt tt harmony is onli possible whn one learns hw 2 bao rong(accomodate) another.
stress stress.
i gt a pimple on the side of my face,
bumpy, swollen red nasty bullshit.
it only signifies one thing.
Apple juice is gonna cum):
wah laos.
alwaes cum i wasted so much bread,
thn so mani events hv recurred recentli tt im alwaes feeling so tight.

"If only Adam and Eve hadn sinned thn the world would nw hv bin filled wif only luv and happiness. No negative feelings.. hw nice"- Quoted frm Choy Xueting♥

2008-12-11T19:44:00.002+08:00

i know u'll read my blog.
let me remind u,
if one bears a grudge n lets their anger rule dem,
it is a v tiring ting alryt.
N wei le dis small matter which u gt angri ovr at 1st,
its simpli no pt bcos,
lyk u sae,
dun mke a big fuss out of nth which u shdn.
Perhaps aft i put yr link on my blog ytd nyt 4 e rest 2 c,
u mde yr blog unreadable.
bt i deleted it bcos.
i still treasure our frenship, our sister-hood whether anot u dont.
the rest is up 2 u,
i cudn care less alr.

2008-12-10T14:11:00.005+08:00

Arent i pleased to receive yr special 'dedication' personally on yr blog.
Wow, im so honored. Right, me acting innocent..
Hmm, at least u acknowledged tt i can 'act', unlike u wan act innocent oso fail,
结果真面目每次都被破穿, tts y ppl term u as fake. Haha.
"Ppl who clarify things are kiddos?"
Oh well, i take it tt ur terming yrslf as 一切完美无瑕.
No wonder yr forte n 专号 is 'Pengwei Kia',
always never clarify thn get the facts all wrong.
结果 so much 误会 tts y ppl call u 'Pengwei". Haha.
If im a kiddo, an act 可怜的 innocent crapper,
ur an immature ***** tts not a kid anymore still 不会想,
winner of all losers, wan act 也 act 不了的 pengwei shitter.
At least kiddos still small, still got learning spc, still 很单纯,
not like someone 称为很 mature but 做法不成熟的 ***** hus not a kid anymore,
Shitter! At least kids have learning spc, still got hope,
unlike someone hu tinks she's perfect, still call herslf laoniang,
haha, meaning she old liao,
only got few more years to live with v lil learning growing spc hor.
Laoniang, wo shi ni de kiddo worrrrrrs,
bcos "Yuanting my mother"(quoted frm someone's...),
u my laoniang n since im yr kiddo, bu shi gen ni xue lai de lor....
lyk mother lyk child, lyk senior lyk junior.
Shitter n Crapper lyk ur nt! I crap u shit... ha!
Crap gt gd n bad hor, which is 刚刚好 ok n oh plsssss, im lame?
I still can walk, mind u. Older thn u by 1yr so who's lamer before?
Whn i walking le, u still in yr mother's womb, cum out still drinking milk,
still crawling, still learning how 2 walk!
dis proves tt u were lame whn i cud walk hor, baby!
N hello missy, call yrslf a laoniang n nt a kiddo anymore,
yet still at dis age kao backup end up
自以为是天下无敌死不了 tink bigger than God,
i tell u, if yr life is priceless n worthy, kao ziji,
dun no backbone de yu dao problem thn tui suo,
act dao so powerful bt end up is rely on other ppl as yr kao shan KKKKK?
at dis age still nid ppl cum hlp u settle yr prob whn u ownslf che daiji.
Ha. U call yrslf laoniang ars, lol.
i can b yr great-grandmother liao ok.
zhi shao is i clarify e misunderstanding myslf nt ask ppl hlp me or even worse,
do nth lyk u tt end up bei dang cheng Pengwei Kia in e end.
n zhi shao aft e clarification, e conclusion is win-win de hor.
Misunderstanding clear, me n my bro ok le.
Hmm, sry 4 disappointing u lers.
i knw dis wasn e "happi" ending u selfishly wanted 4 yr sake,
oh well. Too bad dis world has 2 much shit due 2 ovrflooded shitting frm a Shitter lyk Ahem-*****-Someone.
IF U HADN PENGWEI ABT WEIYI N 抹汗, U TINK ALL DIS SHIT WUD HV HPND??? OH, I JUS 4GT TT UR A SHITTER NO WONDER NC GT SO MUCH SHIT HPNING NW... BOOHOO! U WANNA CRY> COMPLAIN<>LYINGSHIT<,
all 2 mke my life lyk hell, ur v welcome cos...
U'll Only B Wasting Yr "Precious" Tym nia.
Nvr seen me lyk tt b4 ryt? Lucki u.
Ur the v v v v v 1st 2 experience such a "special'' treatment frm me aft my past As U Deserve It Bcos Extreme Circumstances Frm A Big-Fat-Hateable *****
Force Me 2 Treat U Lyk Dis, Miss Careful.!. (to b continued...)

P.S. (btw, ***** is so as 2 hlp u save a little-teeny-weeny bit of yr thick skinness tts abt 2 b left with no skin soon...) ._______.

2008-12-08T21:15:00.004+08:00

Complications of trust, truth, lies.

Trust leads u 2 bliv sum1 if dey're telling the truth or lies.

bt sumtyms,

it all dpends on hw blind ur.

WEIYI im sry bro.

YUANTING, its nt a matter of blowing tings up. If my normal frens were e ones n case, i wudn hv cared rly 2 ask. Bt if it cums 2 either u, Weiyi, Xt, JJ, SN, my close frens or sisters, dey matter 2 me alot, in my heart, & so i wud choose 2 ask, 2 clarify, rather thn 2 leave ani space 4 misunderstandings...

JJ ty 2 u my bestie 4 lending me a shoulder, my sponge.

XT ty 2 u marshmallow 4 yr softness&comfort.

SN ty my luvly sister 4 mking me laugh.

WK ty 2 u 4 yr entertainment last nyt...

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

lots&lots&lots.

2008-12-05T18:21:00.002+08:00

"if you could, wad would you do?"

im outta NC le,
bt still in SBF withloves(:

freedom lyk b4 wrk,
i hvn experienced dis 4 a year...
whoa.

25th-27th Nov

NC Chalet@Pasir Ris...
duplex rm.
evry1 squeezed on e 2nd flr bedrm cos 1st flr dun hv.
4 free tkts 2 Escape&Wild wild wet...
(:
bbq-ed.
at nyt 3/4am went OCH.
experienced stuff.
aft chalet sick 4 8daes...

Whn wrds r misintepreted,
actions r doubted,
misunderstandings occur,
or cud it b a hint,
or a fact,
or jus an accident?
...

2008-12-04T19:17:00.001+08:00

my Friendster is officialli alive agn!!!!(:
Feel free 2 add me at AquamarineCath_93@hotmail.com

2008-11-01T00:11:00.004+08:00

@____@ Junjie

!____! Weiyi

.____. Olivia

^____^ Emily

*____* Yuanting

+____+ Xueting

-____- Xinmei

x____x Jereen

=____= Henry

>____<>

$____$ Jason

hahaha. e mani faces of our NC Team.

we're e best, e rockers, e funkers, e poppers, e peepers, e wadevr -pers...

lololol.

happi memories...

9-8-8-6.

Sales.

haha.

it was rly a surprise whn i went redhill 2 wrk thn 1of e hses blonged 2 mr firhad&his wife,

+e visitor in their hse was Mr Lim Seow Chong!!!!! ><

OMGoSShhhH ryt??

& thn ytd,

at nyt,

it was Ms Ng May Gay,

wah laos,

she oso...

altgt,

Mr Firhad, Mr Lim&Ms Ng...

3 tchers, my customers.

Woots~

sent XT hme ytd w JJ,

dam kee siao our 3some...

we were lyk 3clowns drunk la.

camwhored lyk mad dogs nvr seen a cam b4...

bleahx.

& Great Thx 2 Blk?? Clementi ?? #03-610 4 Hlping Me Gt 3 At 1 Shot*

!!!Attention!!!

dun laugh or gt mad dear readers,

@wrk 2dae,

was quite high until press e doorbell until doorbell cum out,

laughed lyk crap in frnt of customer bt luckili he smile smile(:

thn i "4gt" 2 return e doorbell,

thn whn press,

still gt sound,

hpefulli nw @ yew tee so far le,

e hse no mor sensor...

SoRRy~

(o'.'o)

~sPeCiAl dEdIcAtIoNs~

YUANTING MY PSYCHO MEIMEI,

XUETING E NVRENDING SNOW FALLING,

JUNJIE ALWAES HGL(HAPPI-GO-LUCKI),

WEIYI 4EVR EMOTIONAL,

HENRY MY DIDI,

JIANHUI PERVERT,

JASON SO VULNERABLE.

Ton-ing at YT's hse w XT nw,

bhind-e-scenes intimacy w dese kee siao sisters,

i guess we rly mke failed hsewives 2 b in future,

especialli YT aft her roller chair,

our flying mattress...

Yew Tee Canal & NC Westies,

e haunts & candies,

kings&queens, princes&princesses...

mwacks,

i toking lotsa crap nw,

nyt-madness...

~_*

(saeh liaos)

alryts.

my 1st late nyt post...

Swt dreams my loves,

Bye'

Wif♥

JAN

2008-10-29T17:33:00.003+08:00

Thought Of The Day:
"Are dreams rly e opp of reality, or 'll dey rly cum tru?"

Betrayal, backstabbing, hurt, anger, tears.
My brother,
r u doing wad i seem 2 tink ur doing?
isit 4 my own gd,
or u jus dowan us 2 hv ani contact wif each other?

*Y do u alwaes cum in2 my dreams?*

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Wif♥

JAN

2008-10-27T16:01:00.005+08:00

♥♥♥

2008-10-25T15:37:00.003+08:00

Dis song in my playlist,
probabli playing nw,
is a must-listen!,
Always Online.

go 2 e link 2 watch,
its v sad,
hpe it moves y'all too.

Always Online- JJ Lin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7F-pzhSOZI

2008-10-25T15:05:00.003+08:00

Mixed. .__________________.

im feeling so mani emotions at 1 tym,
i tink i cn explode u knw...
AIYZZZZZ...

ytd at 1143pm,
dunno y suddenli flt lyk writing evryting out,
jus sitting dwn n slowli slowli write evryting in me all out,
i flt btr u knw...
till im readi,
im gonna burn it.

Mon's Deepavali!
haha.
im gonna dig 4 my Indian costume cos yay!!!!!!,
we're g visiting,
Cally, Rachel, WQ, Abi, Pris, Perrine, Keith Weirong, Ariel, Bryan, Nesh!,
Indian Curry woah,
hot hot hot! ><

Ariel invited me 2 join his band,
oh mann,
s the other singer...
honestli,
its pressure pressure,
cos OMG,
i dunno hw 2 put it...
i heard thrs a face-off wif Aaron's band.
shivers~

Am i being 2 sensitive?
aft e hurt, pain, sadness,
alot of tings changed...
my high happi slf,
TEMPORARILI disappeared dunno whr..
i suddenli feel tt no1 cares,
even my buddies at wrk dun seem 2 care,
i feel dey find me a nuisance,
i jus cnt explain dis leh...
i tink im myb tinking 2 much,
bt thn nt agn.
Great,
Work.West Team.
i ♥ dem.
bt,
i jus cnt ctrl tings which r hpning ard me,
i dun even understand y tings r g dis wae...,

Dear God,
i pray tt evryting'll b alryt sn...
hw i wish tt i cn knw e secrets of e hearts of others,
so i wun b in dis dilema,
i pray 4 Grandma,
tt her operation'll b a success on Mon,
her hip bones r fractured aft e fall,
shes in grt pain,
& shes allergic 2 all types of medicine so even painkillers cnt wrk 4 her,
seeing her in pain jus mkes me wanna cry,
bt ive gotta b strong,
ive cried 2 much,
e last injury was alr 2 much 2 bear,
i bcme vulnerable...
Mke me strong agn Oh Lord,
Close up e wounds within me,
Numb dem,
fill dem wif yr love...
frm my mani problems u cn see,
frm spiritualli to family to him to wrk to life,
i knw tt thru u,
if i place my trust in u,
i'll finalli pull thru agn...
i'll b okay agn,
ryt?

JAN
♥♥♥

2008-10-22T19:49:00.006+08:00

Collected report bk 2dae.

mtg tym was 830,

bt Mummy was v v unwell):

so i went alone.

Zhang Lao Shi -________-''

mde me & sum others wait wait wait until evry1 wif parents were gne,

b4 she gv us our report bks.

Damn!

i waited a boring 1+hrs!!! ><

haha.

bt my darling Pris pei me,

& Marie pretended 2 b my cousin.

Heh.

Ps. Mrs Toh even believed us!!!

xPPP bad gals r we :DD

anw I GOT PROMOTED,

Heng i passed passed passed!!!

plus plus NO S2E!!! x)))

thn ate lunch wif Pris at Dover,

we both bought our fav Bak Chor Mee!!!

hahahah.

Yum!

Aftwards went 2 mt EE at bkt batok,

we did bowling at the CSC,

oh mann,

nw did i thn realise im actualli a member thr...

followed E bec 2 blk n passed by Mernel's blk,

sighhhh,

i hate e loss of u Mernel,

although we occasionalli smiled,

u mde an impression in my life...

if onli u didn choose 2 leave lidat, dis wae,

u had so mani gd tings in life lyk yr family, yr sisters...

oh well.

Under the blk we plaed cards,

daidi, bluff, 21...

actualli wanted 2 bet wif money bt alas,

we found ourslfs brke...

so we betted wif marshmallows instead(oh, E brought drinks & marshmallows dwn.)

Was lkg thru all e pics in e fone,

found sum beautiful bt past memories,

so dcided 2 upload dem b4 i dlete frm e fone...

Erase&4gt.

DIY(:

My life-savers!!(thk u 4 hlping me 2 fix in tym(: )

The result

The perfect gift(:

We were opposites

Dis was whr e 3of us dcided 2 relive our dprived childhood... - Vivo's Toys R' Us

haha.

Lame n childish,

bt we had fun(:

My monopoly-ians

The kings hu lay s dey pleased :P

im a burden! :D

dun we lk gd?? (jk.)

Aww, lovElY... ♥

Pretty Princess ♥

The Umbrella Gang (we lk lyk sum ppl frm a musical... xP)

Spokesmen 4 Thomas!! ha.

My chauffeur, xDD

tmr myb poning sch...

dunno y..

aiyz,

boring boringg!

._________________.

tAk3.cAr3

JAN

♥♥♥

2008-10-21T17:23:00.011+08:00

"Headstrong to say it's not painful,

pretending thr isn ani wound at all.

Headstrong to lift up yr head,

not letting the tears roll."

i wonder y im a bitch in yr sight?

i wonder y u tink i'll tio zui u?

i wonder m i so unreasonable in yr sight?

i wonder y u feel tt wae?

i wonder y u tink tt wae?

i wonder hw it all ended?

i wonder y it ended dis wae?

My heart hanging in mid-air,

still im headstrong 2 sae i dun luv u animor.(:

im moving on...

aft 1mth 2 wks on the 20th hr, 43mins, 42sec

i wonder i wonder...

Watched Painted Skin wif JJ at CP,

super super nice&touching.

haha.(:

thn JJ, Elissa&me went Bugis 2 mt WuZun!!!

Alamak!!!!,

he cme 2 sg,

& rly 4 e 1st tym,

i tink hes wae too gd-lking baaa...

& i went 2 cut my hair ytd,

new style,

&my extensions r almost gne.(:

Blast!

plussss!!!!!

IM PROMOTED 2 SEC4EXP NXT YEAR!!!!!

WooHooS!!! (: (: (:

haha.

my toe dam poor ting,

doc said my whole toenail was gonna cum out,

if dese pics gross u out,

click on the x icon on yr screen(:

internal bleeding... ):

Blood stain

front view

side view

e new 188 bus frm harbourfrnt

e overall view

e nice flooring(:

at e bec

my fav. pic out of all was dis one tkn wif my N.C. frens((:

tAk3.cAr3

JAN.

♥♥♥

2008-09-02T14:08:00.002+08:00

Purple contacts...
mesmerizing u~~~
hahaha.

hw 2 upload my pics??
i dun hv cable!!):

went 2 lot1 macs 2dae...

Studi studi wif JJ, Weiyi&Sijin.

my pretti rainbows..

lol.

the 2guys were lyk drowning their heads in their wrk,

while I was busi laughing,

haha.

& i mixed 2 flavors, hotfudge&strawberry in my sundae...

A swt dreamy start 2 my dae.

thn ltr still g wrk,

cos gt nyt shift!!

He mde 200heart shapes 4 me&hid 2 small lil gifts inside..

haha.
i hvn dug yt.
thn he cooked sum egg&sausage rice 4 me,
no salt inside bt salty enuf...
lol.
Aiyoooo,
my hme econs btr thn u lor...
haha.

ytd went plaza sing, cathay...
Saw sum rly interesting shirts 4 couples,
& 1 pair tt said "I ♥ Cock"&"I ♥ Pussy"
Imagine hu wud dare wear such shirts out except real Daredevils..
haha.
(shop's in Cathay on the 1st flr bside NewUrbanMale.)

myb adding sum new pics sn frm his hp,
at e same tym im gona fix my ipod music in my blog...
its slightli screwed.
UhhhhhH (o'.'o)

tAk3.cAr3
JAN
♥♥♥

2008-08-17T19:59:00.002+08:00

dis wk i was so "On" on g 2 wrk faithfulli b4 stuff hpned,

thn i onli wrked 3daes instead of 4...

):,

whr i cud hv earned an xtra $22 4 myslf!!!!

so frustrating.

a sidetrack of 2dae...

oh well,

dis tym's round of doing vocals for svc in church 2dae was the most challenging&impactful.

It led me 2 rly dpend on Him 4 strength 2 mke the songs possible 4 us,

Elissa&i.

We sang a new song,

"God of This City"

The verses spoke 2 me greatli.

V.1

You're the God of this city,

You're the King of these people,

You're the Lord of this nation,

You are.

V.2

You're the light in this darkness,

You're the hope to the hopeless,

You're the peace to the restless,

You are.

I came 2 acknowledge tt He is the Ruler of our lives,

&i re-dedicated my life in Him,

to allow the Holy Spirit 2 tke ovr my life...

2 walk dis walk wif Him.

& hahahahaha!!!

im so xcited.

S we're doing dis multi-racial dance in diff races,

thrs Chinese, Malay, Indian, Vietnam, Thai, Korean&Spanish.

Im in Spanish dance&the dance's rly Cooo000L!

the flipping of the skirt&blah blah.xP

Aft the dance practice,

Elissa, Angeline& i ate at Sumo Hse

(p.s. i tell u, u mus rly try the food thr... Its AweSome!)

met Qiu Feng, HuiQin/Wen, Derrick, Matt&WQ.

hahaha.

Ate my all-tym fav Katsudon.(:

Qiu Feng kpt mking us laugh.

lol.

Played b-ball aft tt.

haha.

im alr addicted to 2sports,

B-ball&Soccer...

haha.

We play dem evry wkend at nyt&in the aftnn.

i duno y.

Evr since my real, ghostly encounter,

ive harboured a secret fear 2wards malay guys,

nt tt im racist.

Its a phobia of a haunting past.

........

taK3.cArE

JAN

♥♥♥

2008-08-15T20:17:00.004+08:00

To my dear readers:

The music is from the music player in my blog.

To view it,

go to the last column where my links are,

scroll dwn slowli...

thn cn see le.

3nJoY!

2008-08-15T19:20:00.006+08:00

Im blowing inside lyk a hot air balloon,

exploding, exploding...

i srsly cannot wait for the Hungry Ghost Festival 2 b ovr.):

alot of bad stuff hpned recentli...

ytd&on the 8th.

hvnt totalli recovered frm dem.

Spiritual encounters...

MY 1ST TIME!!!!!

but the Lord rescued me.

THANK YOU!(=

then,

quarrelled wif my supervisor ytd...

it was a rly heated one.

I was at fault too.

I shd hv beared wif u.

u knw tt i dislyk ppl 2 mke empty promises,

&whn u knw tt uve mde a mistke,

y r u still denying??

Its Not Lyk We're All Gonna Hate U.

Bt i was convicted by the Lord 2 apologise,

&i did...

GENUINELY(=

hwevr...

jus whn my 1st sentence was, "*****(his name), im rly sry...",

the line --------...

He kuped.

Oh well,

bt yay!!!

i still said it eventualli.

Scarlet&Marilyn's migrating!!!

&dey're flying off tmr.

1 to Dubai, the other 2 Shanghai.

I MISS U SISTERS LOTS!!!!!!!

nyr 2 b 4gtn alryt?x)

Chem test 2dae was horrible!

evry1 was so stressed out.

Chinese test bcme the most dreaded one.

Aiyz...

Yvette!!(: smile k? Dun wry. Uve tried yr best. Evry1 cares abt u so whn ur upset,

we all can feel it too.

SISTERS!!!!!x))))

thx 4 the beautiful things uve dne 4 me.

I wish i cud've dne mor bt in e future,

my turn'll cme...

luv ya gal.

Ms Red&Mr Green 4eva♥

i feel lyk running running frm my fears.

Bt i bliv i'll emerge safeli out thru the grace of Him.

TO RACHEL,CALLY,ELISSA,DELIA:

thk u 4 doing nice, swt lil stuff 2 hlp me in my times of distress.

Mking breakfast 4 me daily, hlping me in my schwrk(*CPY CPY*),

lending me $$$ whn i nt enuf 2 eat.

haha.

AWWWWWW,

im v touched...

(':

aiiShiiT3rU

JAN

♥♥♥

2008-08-07T10:40:00.004+08:00

In com lab nw...
its f&n!!!
hahaha.
slack.slack.slack.

tmr gt Connect Singapore...
dun feel lyk going sia.
Bt its gonna b fun.
&we're gonna camwhore all ovr 4 sure.
haha.

Was super sick recentli.
Nw jus gt btr.
Thn the headaches started,
&my nose is running.
*plan*plan*
so stress, +WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
><

post's short.
gtg sn.
Ms LILY is...

I tink im in luv...

aiiShiiT3rU
JAN
♥♥♥

2008-07-07T20:00:00.003+08:00

FINALLY MY BLOG'S SAVED!

NEW SKIN, NEW IMAGE, NEW LIFE.

Jan

♥♥♥

2008-06-24T18:13:00.002+08:00

sigh...

so long nvr blog le...

haha.

i miss my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so fast sch reopen le.

my june holies juz flewwwww...

haha.

busi busi.

gonna upload pics sn if i cn.

cuz my other fone is hung.

quite badli too.

bt luckili e pics r safe.

2dae hahaha...

didn go sch.

gt 2daes MC 4 2dae&tmr.

saw doc alr,

4 a v large&stinging ulcer on my tongue&2baby ulcers on my lips...

I muz pray hard tt its nt HFMD cuz doc sae its e earli stage so cnt tell.

Bt if gt mor appear, mor rashes, Gd Luk!

lol.

bt im still quite jovial abt it.

haha.

plus!

juz found out tt my sch gt several cases of HFMD too.

Bye peeps!!!

Gt loads 2 do.

Luv sch,

Luv YA!(:

tAK3.cAr3.lOaDs

x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU

♥♥♥

Wifhearts,

JAN.

2008-05-16T10:42:00.001+08:00

blogging sn ppl...
thx 4 yr smses & concerns.
(:

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU

Wifluvs,
JAN.

2008-04-22T16:16:00.004+08:00

......................................
IM RUNNING OUT OF BATT!!!
MY LIFE'S BATTERY IS DYING...
oh no.
& i feel v exhausted.

things were mor or less clarified alr & i learnt mani lessons frm Si-er's teachings..
i def. felt encouraged by his encouragements 2 Jia You, Dun gv up, im doing great & 'll do.
Wanna thk God too,
4 so mani things He has done 4 me,
especialli 2dae whn a "crisis" striked,
He brought me thru,
although um,
it wasn totalli pleasant bt yea,
He LOVES me...
(((((:

Cutting fringe ltr...
i miss my heart-shaped bangs...
):
im recutting & restyling frm slant back 2 heart-shaped...
fits my jawline perfectli too...
& slant has caused me attire probs le...
lol.
tym 4 a change.

& Daily Discipler......
Here I Come!!!!!!
xPPP

wad brought me a soothing sense of peace & relaxation 2 my mind was...
The Beautiful & Pretty Garden under Elissa's blk...
U guys shd go tk a lk at the pics...
i guess she'll b uploading dem sumtym sn...
Deres the Singapore-shaped plant, Heart-shaped pink plant, purple flowers, pink-red roses...
So COLOURFUL!!!
lyk my life...
im leading a c.o.l.o.u.r.f.u.l life evrydae!!
x)
oO

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

Wifluvs,
JAN.

2008-04-14T19:49:00.002+08:00

"I've got to pick myself up from where i left myself."

& then I'll transform into a new person and i mean it.
A totally new girl.
Better.
Stronger.
Braver.
Happier.

Time.
Wonder when.
Not so soon i reckon.

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

Wifluvs,
JAN.

2008-04-14T19:44:00.002+08:00

"I'm helpless in this situation. "
I dunno how am I supposed to be feeling.
Happy? Sad? Nonchalant? Indifferent?
No.
I'm perhaps unconsciously sad, hurt, shattered?
So minor that I'm not even aware of it??
I know.
Those feelings are neither here nor there...
And yes,
like what was being described,
I feel the same way.
While you didn't need to feel that way because it was unnecessary that's why.
And it was my own conflict anyway, wasn't it?

I had no idea why it turned out this way..
4gt all abt it...
throw them all awae.
Scream.
nUmB.

Jan

BACK BUT BLURRED.......

2008-04-09T22:34:00.003+08:00

this is silly...........
i can't really see right now cuz my sight's gone really bad..
my dad says that the virus is attacking my head..
I'M SCARED.....BUT again,THANK GOD for my dear who took the time
to pray for me and my dear emily..thanks once again!
i'm tired,weak,blind........but it's alright..cuz today's one of
the very few days which will remain in my heart..a day worth all my
time and love..i've made a decision!--a good one(:PRAISE THE LORD!

'EMILY!!!!!YOU TOO GET WELL SOON ALRIGHT?!
DON'T WORRY BOUT ME!I'LL WORRY BOUT YOU!
YEAH WE'RE BOTH SICK AND THAT SUCKS BUT
WE'RE STILL VERY BLESSED IN SO MANY WAYS
AND YOU KNOW IT TOO..I'LL BE THERE...............
WITH LOVE AND ALL OF MY DEEPEST CARE!!!'

""God has put you in my life for a reason..
i've seen the reason for myself--so many times..
thank GOD soo much and thank YOU.....LOVES!!

>BEING FORCED TO STRAIN YOUR EYES THE WHOLE DAY REALLY BITES!

2008-04-09T21:31:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes th truth juz hurts & uve gotta deal wif it face-on."

Yve

2008-04-09T21:20:00.003+08:00

SnapShots r nt wrking on th blog...
AHHH!!!
so frustrating...
><
guess hving a sectional blog instead of a full-pg 1 has its disadvantages too...

At Yve's hse nw...
on th wae dere blacked out twice...
lucki i didn faint...
& so On The Verge of fainting,
i squatted dwn in front of evry1 at th JE bus interchange...
smsed Eunice Ng 2 oso kp me in prayer bsides me praying 4 myslf...
missed my stop at wcrc.
bt didin head back in th end cuz yve ran 2 find me.
(:

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

Jan

WE'RE BOTH UNWELL!:(

2008-04-08T21:54:00.010+08:00

heyy look who's here!!abigail('yvette')HAS FINALLY SPOKEN..
the truth is,i have NEVER blogged before through this 15 years!
this shall be my first!(:hahah, thanks my dear emily(:(:
alright,this post shall be real short 'cuz im going nuts.
my head's going to self-destruct and it's KILLING me.....
hmm,but GOD sent someone dear to pray for me++!
THANK GOD AND THANK YOU DEAR SOMEONE(:
EMILY'S here and she's suffering too..MY POOR GIRL!:(

emily finds this post amusing=.=
she thinks the way i write is funny.....
is it?i don't think so..or am i just sick?
LOL

i think i'll stop here.
my head's callin me to get the pain"KILLERS"
doesn't really work:(
GOD SAVE THE HEAD..

well,it was fun i guess..
i know i'm really crappy!
typing all the rubbish down
& wasting time and space..
do forgive,they call me crappi abbie for a reason!
A VERY VALID REASON.=.-

oh well..
GOODNIGHT!
take good care of all your butts,
weather these days' been real nasty!

**it's amazing how i still can type in complete sentences.
proves my brain's still working!(:whoo~
***ooo..how i LOVE the colour RED..(ultimate randomness)

A-Y

2008-04-08T19:48:00.005+08:00

sian...
i guess i realli missed out alot on sch & i dunno hw 2 catch up...
><
& my immune system is dwn agn...
aft pox,
came headache,
den small amts of rashes,
den nw,
infection of throat, running nose...
bt i'll gt well.
i noe.
Cuz my Lord'll protect me & heal me.
(:

met Spencer aft seeing doc at polyclinic.
Wow.
He lks mor mature in his JC uniform.
& serious,
JC life is so blank.
& i heard tym realli flies whn ur juz dere.

last fri hlped elissa set up her v own blog.(:
sad bt th new blogger juz cnt edit its fixed skins 2 customized blogskins.
sumtyms old things r btr if dey stayed th wae dey were dun dey?

& my Kor is dwn wif pox cuz of me...
Sry bro!
sry.
i noe yr pox is much worse.
I'll try 2 visit u alrite?
promise.

my trips 2 clem & holland v totalli spoilt my dae ytd.
cuz...
aft accompanying my dis sis-in-sharing-my-blog 2 th doc,
we went 2 eat at th dessert kiosk of Mac.
Saw *her* frens,
dey stared at us,
said OMG,
& came back 3-4 times juz 2 insult us indirectli,
while walking in rounds past us.
den whn we headed off 2 holland v 2 mt other frens at th BK dere,
whn we went up,
we saw...
Surprise surprise!
dey were dere too!
i gt a shock bcuz their insults flew at us bt we did th rite thing...
2 juz ignore although i was v uncomfortable abt it...
Hey hey...
i dunno wads up wif u guys.
So wad if i was his ex-gf & she was his ex-bf...
so if its gonna wrk dis wae whn an ex hates their exes ex,
wun th whole world b enemies?
i Was her fren,
bt she made th choice 2 b enemies wif me juz cuz of ...
Wad happened here?

Tell u guys...
I HATE SCH!!!!!
i gt accused by my V.P 4 sth i didn do,
& well, yes, my best fren hus in sharing dis blog asked th tcher & th tcher said th TRUTH while th V.P. said another.
I gt insulted & humiliated face on in front of evry1.
& she even used my family situation at hme 2 put dwn my class...
it was my 1st dae i came back 2 sch aft pox & dis whole stuff juz popped up.
*pulls hair*
To her:
"Wad my mum told u is confidential. even if u didn sae my name, stupid ppl lyk me noe hu ur referring to. N u sae i tk things 4 granted, was surprised tt whn u booked me 4 no reason, u discovered it was actualli my 1st bking, said i didn lk sry whn i was..."
God placed me in dis 4 a reason.
i prayed abt nt tking offence although at 1st i admitted i did.
Jinhang oso told me y shd i b sry or sae sry whn i hadn done aniting wrong...
bcuz...
i respected her,
i respected her authority.
nw i guess im slightli famousli infamous accusedli.

i realli dunno wad 2 sae bt i noe God'll hlp me 2 pull thru sumhw in His wae...
A godbro'll ALWAES remain a godbro.
i nid 2 set my priorities right!
(:

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

Jan

2008-04-02T21:07:00.021+08:00

Pics frm camwhoring!!!
Pretti & wonderful...
memories ranged frm th 1st tym me, carol, andy & steven sat a pick-up...
my bdae...
& mor blah.
sian.
& NEWSSS!!!
My sis is g 2 join me in my blog.
She luvs writing...
Our new displae pic'll b up sn on th right.
Ta-ta.
(:

Zzzzz... i was abt 2 fall aslp.

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

2008-03-30T20:09:00.009+08:00

"I'm not ready to ask for the things which my heart is not prepared for."

hmmm..

i muz sae so mani tings hv happened in th last 2 or so wks...

all th memories came back agn.

bt i made a promise nt 2 turn back on th decision ive made.

bcuz...

those memories hurt.

n def,

even if i rmb onli th happi memories,

bt onli r dey limited s dere r mor bad den happi ones.

I'm Sorry.

I'm not in a position animor 2 hv ani interference in yr life.

Ur still th same & bsides hv i onli gotten 2 noe mor hurtful truths.

Th truth came out in th light too late & onli hv i nw onli gotten 2 noe abt.

I was a BIG fool.

& sum relationships, frenships muz b terminated...

taught 2 me by my mentor ytd.

TY loads Eunice!

Uve taught me wise truths frm God,

guided me whn i almost brokedwn...

saw my tears, saw my joy,

comforted & encouraged me.

My sister & my mentor!

ive lost sooooo much weight.

cuz of my past 2 wks of gting chickenpox.

Discomfort was lyk all ova me & it was onli th period tt i actualli MISSED SCH!

ahaha.

bt by th grace of God,

He delivered me & ans my prayer 4 a speedy recovery.

Ive learnt hw 2 FULLY place my trust in God...

& m still practicing & applying.

He is alwaes dere 4 me whn I nid Him th most...

Im v excited bcuz im officialli 15!

my ic...

woots.

& juz ty 2 all my frens hu tk tym out of yr busy schedules 2 celebrate wif me.

I realli treasure & appreciate yr Loves...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

& bro..

in a few hrs tym its yr bdae.

Happi XXth Bdae!

haha.

i noe v old so i wun reveal la.

lol.

jk.

& dun gv up...

Noooooooooooooo!!!!!

Soldiers of God wun fail.

Although u'll pass & ovacum it spiritualli,

(PS. perhaps i may nt fulli understand,)

bt wadeva u do & ovacum in yr faith in God,

U'll Succeed!((:

i noe ur tired...

bt alr halfwae thru so dun gv up!!!(:

Whn u finalli ovacum dem,

th goal is reached.

Rmb th Phillipians 3:12 tt passage.

Persevere!!!

God wun allow nor wish 2 see u fall.

Seek Him & u'll find.

He is yr comfort, refuge & strength.

Ask & u'll receive.(Jinhang's example of th father, th 3yr old baby & th 5yr old baby)

:) bro!

We're all bhind U!

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs

x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU

♥♥♥

2008-03-07T16:23:00.000+08:00

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2008-03-07T15:49:00.005+08:00

hey guys!
sry 2 make u wry 4 me...
juz tt i rather let myslf take upon the whole burden den let u guys share it wif me.
im alrite nw.
ive long returned hm.
haha.
xD
i realli treasure our frenship.
U guys alwaes hlp me when im in need.
(:
family probs r well, yea, complicated.
i juz realli need 2 pray 4 God's strength & deliverance upon me 2 guide me thru.
Man cnt solve it himslf.
Feeling btr i promise.
xP

im v v extremely tired.
hvn slept well in lyk 2 daes liddat.
sch was fun.

Jarron is my source of laughter&stomach cramps.
hes real random&cn gv u enough crap 2 last 4 a year.
i wonder where did he gt the speed 2 do so.
i guess his iq muz b undoubtedly high...
><

Perrine is my source of inspiration 2 hv a +ve view of my life.(:

Alan is my godbro, super-duper-indescribably-nice.
Ur a great bro kk, although sharing th same bdae s XXX on __ M--.
Stay cheerful lyk a banana & believe tt yr abilities wif th rite use cn hlp u reach yr goals!
#1 4eva!
Woots!xP

Abigail is my best fren-little sis...
i <3 u lots...
lol.
i noe tt life is tough,
especialli wif all th drama&blah-blah-blah in sch.
No matter wad happens,
u cn alwaes count on me though i muz sae im sumtyms quite quiet s u noe,
my character resemble Hebe.
Psst.
if u dunno,
go check it out!
Ur smart princess!
Smile lyk the sun!
x))))

im a vegabond,
wandering evrywhere&exploring evryting...
haiz.

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

2008-03-03T20:47:00.007+08:00

Yayyy!!!
My Bdae cuming le.
Wow!
~Swt 15~
& its lyk so fast...
tym flies.
im so happi 2dae.
although of cuz gt alot of bad bad stuff la.
bt i decided 2 b Proactive!
new wrd learnt 2dae.

i totalli missed church on wkends cuz of my schedule.
Sry God!
bt i'll b cuming back dis wkend.
(:

wrk is gd.
xPPPPP

hweva,
deres smth i muz sae out loud!
FMSS!
i luv u bt hw could u?!
Wasn caning meant 2 1st seek parental consent?
& we're toking abt public caning here...
i dun understand.
Muz u humiliate dis realli-inside-is-v-gd boy?
We're a Christian sch 4 th sake of evry1!
)':
im super disturbed & upset...
& disappointed!
She is too!

i'll b writing letters 2 evry1 sn on my blog.
hmmm,
yup.
i juz feel soooo?
Expressionless?

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

2008-02-24T17:24:00.002+08:00

4 th most hilarious pics of Vdae frm th WAC peeps of SS, EE & CC,

visit
http://arhwee.myphotoalbum.com/

(:
happi viewing ppl!

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

2008-02-24T16:19:00.002+08:00

haha.
my daes hvn been gd.
on th fateful dae of 22/02/08,
my hp dropped...
den gt stolen...
& hu noes where is it nw bt onli God.
until nw,
i still find it quite unbelievable tt ive actualli, ya.
less den 2 mths sumor.
i guess th person hu tk th fone muz hv had 2 reasons 4 doing so:
1. He/she has an old hp bt has no means of gting a new 1 so my dropped-in-front-of-my-eyes-hp-which-i-didn-c-cuz-it-was-dark-at-nite muz hv figured tt it was a blessing of a free fone.
Bt little did dey noe tt it had made me upset cuz i used my own hard-earned $ 2 pay.'
2. He/she was in financial constraints so dey decided 2 sell it off s it could fetch quite a gd sum 4 their needs.

in wadva wae, i do feel tt even s it may seem lyk a curse 4 ani1 2 lose their hp, tt curse cn actualli seemingly b a blesing in disguise s long s u lk at it in a brighter side.(:

THK U GOD!

& i realli hv 2 pray tt He/She'll nt tamper wif my photos or wad in my memory card cuz it was tgt wif my fone.
AWWW, i feel sick.

i guess i sounded lyk a chicken 2dae during worship.
My cough has been realli bad & all,
even 2 th extent of almost losing my voice.
Haha.
Bt by th grace&th leading of th Holy Spirit ive gt thru.
(:

tmr gt sch agn.
well well,
its gonna b another tiring wk.

"ll b heading 2 Tim Goh's BBQ party ltr tgt wif Carol, Peiling, Pearl&Elissa.
xP

I'll b optimistic&put my faith & trust in Him.

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

2008-02-21T17:26:00.003+08:00

im falling v v sick...
bad bad dae...
i sound so hoarse tt i almost sound s if i'd break my voice...
><"

Dear fren,
sum tings r juz nt meant 2 b,
if its yrs, it'll cum back 2 u eventualli..
If nt,
u juz gotta let go & learn 2 move on.
xXx

ytd watched soccer match wif Delia&peeps...
Y r Beatty Sec soccer players so violent?
i mean,
if u wanna win,
win by using th rite means...
nt by playing dirty.
bt it was a gg though.
Congrats Beatty Sec!(:

EL Comphre test was quite ok.
(:
hope i'd do btr den th last 1.
haha.

sooo nervous&unsure...
aft th chapel ting,
Mrs Lee(my cute form tcher),
wanna sign us up 4 an upcuming TalentQuest in our sch.
A band?
Wad song?
Hw cn we make our performance btr?
Huh Huh Huh???

lol.
pics nt readi yt.
i kp 4gting my cable.
haha.
xP

so nw i noe th truth.
i wonder if yr emotions r tru or juz motives 2 hurt his "her"...

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

2008-02-19T20:02:00.003+08:00

im financially broke nw...
VDAE gimme a heartbreak...
CUZ MY $$$$$$$$ all flew awae.
Gosh!
i cnt believe it.
those were my hard-earned money leh.
bt my efforts paid off.
at least luv was spreading around.
my adorable frens & their interesting gifts.
><

den i was baptised on the 16th.
i was v joyful at th end bt at th same tym,
embarrassed.
Guess wad,
i grabbed my pastor's hand juz when he submerge me in2 th baptismal pool.
PeiXuan said 2 Jun Hoong,"It lked s if Pastor was g 2 murder her."
sigh...
& it was captured on th camera sumor,
IN SEQUENCE...
AAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHH!

dis year's cny was th worst i'd eva had...
i was deprived of my $250,
my freedom was disrupted during visiting HALFWAE!!!
& u noe y?
Cuz my scheduler called an urgent need 4 me 2 Wrk.
?!.................
i totalli went (o'!*o)

ytd was v eventful & scary.
th v 1st tym i had a ghostli encounter & saw tings wif my own eyes which wasn an illusion,
cuz...
My mum saw it 2 & gv her goosebumps.
& i hope it'll nt happen agn 2nite.
Cuz my rm is facing it.
Directli opp.
& stuff juz occurred on me aft tt.
>.O

nw lets tok abt 2dae...
finalli finalli finalli...
Abi, me, Joshua & Nich sang 4 chapel.
it was so last min bt we still did it,
out of th glory of God & nt 4 man...
bt sum ppl simply juz tk it s a comedy act,
laughing at us thruout.
?!
even if th tcher did nt hv a complimentary voice,
she didn do it 2 gain criticism,
& though her voice didn shine lyk YRS(if u tink u cn sing btr wif her BURNING PASSION 4 God),
at least she had th Heart of Worship.
hmmm...
if by ani chance,
ur reading dis...
:)))))
welcum.
cuz if u dun lyk wad im saying den 2 bad.
Cuz i noe,
th truth hurts.
Its reality & reality bites.
i dare u 2 bite me back,
though i doubt it'll hurt cuz u cnt affect me.
Ouch.

fell aslp during el class when i was studying 4 chem..
i didn realise it bt i juz felt sick & v tired,
perhaps, yea.
th aft effect of ytd's incident.

Chem test.
oO
bad.
v hard.
dunno y ppl tot it 2 b so easy.
dey r madness.
x)(x

"ll b uploading sum crazi pics sn...
i realli thk God 4 friends cuz i feel tt dey r th best creation in th world!:))))

"If u were a real lemon, i'd definitely squash U!(:
cnt u juz b nice 4 1ce,
y do u kp acting s though th whole world owes u smth?
"B proactive."--Quoted by th gal bside me nw.xP
bt i guess we hv a v significant place in yr heart, or else y do u try 2 seek war wif us wheneva, whereva, wateva?
Y do u let yr emotions, yr principles rule ova yr head so much tt a past frenship cn turn out 2 b a curse.
Wake Up!!!!!"

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

2008-01-29T10:36:00.000+08:00

Airports are the saddest place when ur nt dere 4 travelling.
Had sore eyes frm crying last nite...

I MISS XIAO TING!
i noe u may nt b reading dis bt i juz wanna sae tt although i dunno u well,
bt ur a realli realli funky&great fren!!!
<3>
Muz takkaire of yrslf & alwaes rmb 2 stay happi alrite.(:
God bless U!

tAk3.cAr3.lOaDs
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥

2008-01-18T16:43:00.000+08:00

alrite...
here i m nw arent i?
Updating...
haha.

Sch is real cool...
& i made mor new frens.
i gt a new hp liao...
xPPPP

& i thk God 4 the mani tinks He has blessed me wif since...
:)

tym running out liao.
disis onli a short post bt...
u gt put the effort ppl.
lol.

<3>

tAk3.cAre
x.X.x

aiiShiiT3rU
♥♥♥